I'm not addicted to drinking, smoking, or any drugs...I'm too cheap for that. I recently posted on my personal Facebook page my disdain for the passing of Whitney Houston and how the American public was going to give her 40 times more coverage then any report of a death of a soldier fighting for the US. *No, I'm not in the service and neither is my husband....I'm just grateful.
Why is anyone surprised a drug addict of MANY years has passed? Better yet, if these celebs who were close to her were so concerned....why didn't they stand by her as she fell deeper verses waiting to get interviewed about her passing away? Needless to say this view didn't sit well with an aunt who I very much enjoy - her daughter is an addict of some very nasty and heavy drugs. I'm not going to share any of that beyond my poor aunt is desperately trying to "educate" me on drug abuse.
In my life if I feel I "need" something, I don't get to have it. If I "need" a glass of wine to calm down - no wine for months. If I "need" an aspirin to calm a headache, I don't take a pill, I begin to work on why I got it in the first place. *I have taken pain pills after surgeries, I have several bottles with plenty of them left sitting in my cabinet. I take Tai Chi to calm my arthritis and my hot rice bag has become apart of my wardrobe when the seasons change. Addiction may run in my family, but it doesn't run me.
My stand is regardless how genetic your disposition is, it's a CHOICE to pick up the bottle or ingest anything. Why risk it? So you love a drug or toxin so much you really look forward to it again - nope, you don't get it ever again. Unless someone strapped you down, your at fault.
Your at fault. Hmmmm, I don't like point fingers at anyone but me so I flipped the script. What am I addicted to? Shoes, jackets, lingerie, nail polish, b flicks, sushi, I can go on but none of it is a real addiction. What do I do that hurts me? *Aside from biting my nails, there's no help for that - I don't care to stop.
Food. Before I had gotten pregnant with the twins I weighed 115lbs. I'm 5'2" so that's in range. I'm very athletic and love going to the gym, mainly for the weight room. Needless to say, I was healthy...even fit. Loved food but watched what I ate. I'm in charge of what I eat and there's a result from what I eat....so for someone with all this "control" why don't I have any with food. Because, I'm addicted. Oh, ya. Easy just became full of excuses and blaming verses health planning and dealing.
After the twins came I quit my job and became a SAHM while my husband took a job that had him travel out of the country on a regular basis. I ate when I could, usually off their plates and from their snack bags. Teddy grams, cheese, and apple slices sounds like an okay diet but I must have been slipping something else in there to keep the weight on. I couldn't get below 127 to save my life. Fast forward 5 years, still at 127...okay, today I weighed in at 130. Awesome, the same weight I was at WHILE pregnant.
I don't own a scale. I weigh myself at the gym, if no one is around to witness my disappointment. I don't believe in weighing more then once a week. It's more about how the clothes fit and how I feel that determines my sense of health.
Diet fads wont work for me. I don't take pills, not even when I have a headache. I'm a super picky eater so those shakes and bars gross me out. So what now? All the sudden I'm faced with learning how to cook foods that are healthy but still taste good enough to eat AND do it on a budget (sahm, remember?). I get $200 every 2 weeks for groceries, gas, and entertainment. Which was going fine when I fed the kids pizza, mac n cheese, spaghetti, etc... Now I wonder how I'm supposed to afford fresh food.
My addiction to food is due to laziness and lack of budget. You'd think getting fit would be easy for someone who actually enjoys the gym. It's not. But I'm off to try to kick this food addiction, the healthy way. We'll have to change how we live, and it's my job to be in the lead on this.
So how do addicts rehab? I've herd they remove themselves from the friends who have tempted them. My husband is a junk food nut. It's not unusual for him to bring home doughnuts, cookies, candy, soda, etc...He's a T1 diabetic btw. He's had it since very young any eating habits he has, he's kept. Changing someone else isn't my thing. Unless it's my kids, they are my kids after all...it's my job to work on bettering us all to raise them in a healthy environment.
I'm going to my parents house which will allow the kids and I to detox as my parents aren't big on treats. They'll watch the kids so I can jog at night (getting up in the am is a joke for me) and my mom is tiny which is helps to see fit people. Yes, I'm the biggest female in my family...I'm 5'2" remember, I'm the biggest.
I assume after I've removed all temptation the next thing is to figure out what we CAN eat, or will eat. We're going to take this one recipe at a time. I think if I find at least one recipe we'll eat a week then after a couple months I'll have a great list of meals I can learn to make well.
I need to prove to myself that I can kick an addiction and maybe, just maybe I can someday get my pre-baby body back:
